DEDICATION

              I   would like to appreciate everyone who had helped me through this journey, God Bless, enjoy. I would also like to dedicate this to my friend Kevin, who died the same month as the drop of this book. Rest well brother

Chapter one

I looked at the bathtub. It looked so nice but so dangerous at the same time. It had been a while since I had been there. I walked closer to the water. I closed my eyes as I will always love you played from my record player. I had a beautiful blue towel on. I put my hands on the water and felt it. Ouch! It was too hot. I turned on the cold water to cool it down a bit. I moved my hands aimlessly around the water just to wait for the exact temperature I wanted it to be. It was a very specific remedy which I needed after having such a long day.

 

I looked at the rose petals I had put on the water as they floated around at the touch of my hands. I couldn't believe I had put rose petals on the water as if I was waiting for my man to have a bath tub moment with me.

 

I took off the towel and looked down at my bodily features. Was I too unentertaining to men? I grabbed my up and coming belly with both my hands. Or was I too intimidating? I looked into the mirror that was at the side of my bathroom. I looked at myself and remembered about the art of self-worth. I for sure knew my worth so I wasn't going to waste time with any man.

 

I got into the bathtub and looked outside of the big window that was looking down on the city of California. It looked amazing. I inherited it from my uncle. He was quite wealthy but that's beside the point. I was really frustrated that day.

I got into the water which instantly started to caressing my body after it wrapped around it like a furry blanket. “Ouw! I could get used to this!" I said as I reached out to the glass of red wine which I had placed at the side of the tub. I slowly smelt it.

 

It felt so heavenly with the view of the city and the bright moon lighting up the corners of my studio apartment. I didn't have much space but this was all I needed. Just when I was about to really enjoy my time there I heard the noise from the phone infiltrating my peace. It rang for a second but I ignored it by the virtue of my tired self.

 

I gasped put after it stop ringing. Now I could get back to my relax therapy. I went on to take another sip of the wine I had but my phone started to ring.

 

"Fuck! Can't anyone in this place have some peace for God's sake?" I yelled as I got out of my tub and wrapped my towel back on.

 

I was mad I got out of my comfort zone but I was glad I did. It was my boss.

 

"Oh hello Patrick. I'm sorry I was taking a shower." I said still irritated by the fact that he called this late in the night.

 

"Hi, Molly. I'm sorry for calling this late but I just remembered that we haven't edited the last video completely. We have to post it soon or it might affect our views." He explained.

 

I began to put my towel back on and walk back to the couch.

 

"Oh, I almost forgot about it. I should get to it then. Could you send it over?" I answered.

 

"Now? Are you sure?" He said."Yeah, I'm not doing much anyway." I said as I looked back at my tub which was busy letting off some steam after we just cut off our time together.

 

"Really? I am so happy you said that. I need to go take care of some stuff with Mellissa. She is still acting up after the incident." He explained.

 

"Okay, send it. Goodnight." I replied. "Cool." He replied and hung up.

I was used to it.

 

Let me explain. Patrick is my boss as you already know. I have been working for him as he owns a YouTube channel by the name Pa- tricks. It's a cheesy name I know but that was all we had for then. He was getting popular actually, he had seven hundred thousand subscribers.

 

I stood up and looked at my bathroom one last time because I knew quite well that by the time I would be finished with editing the video, it would be too late and I would be heading to my other love, my bed.

I got dressed in my pajamas and tied my hair back and came to my laptop. I waited for the video to be sent by Patrick but it took a while and it gave my time to also look around my small place. It was quite a mess off late. It had all this papers written all around most of them cut up. It actually looked like a guy's house. No offense but that mess was really bad. Nothing was neat because of the past few days I was just coming in to do work and got out without getting any time to fix it.

 

My laptop made the notification noise. Patrick already sent the video over email. I opened it and began to watch it. We majored in loyalty tests, whereby we would pick citizens who wanted to testify their partners were loyal or doubted their partner’s loyalty and so they call us. We basically set up a situation to test if the partner was really cheating or not.

 

This one was one of the scariest one we had done. It was really bad because it resulted in a violent moment.

 

So a girl in Chicago had called us to test if her boyfriend was cheating but it turns out he actually was and she knew it before we reached there. She wanted to catch him. When we discussed with her we wanted her to be calm and not do anything crazy. She agreed but as soon as we brought her and her boyfriend into a confrontation she took a baseball bat and hit him in the head. She retaliated by almost throwing her down a pool. It actually really scared me. I had never seen such a situation before. I had seen so many cheating situations but it never became this bad. I paused it and sat down to think for a while.

 

This could be the reason I wasn't with anyone. I had seen so many men cheat that I didn't have any hope in finding any love. I had lost all hope. All of the guys who tried ran away when they knew my job because they said I was really insecure. That was actually why my mom always told me I wouldn't get love if I continued with that line of work. I got online and saw Charlie brown was trending again.

 

I tapped his name to see what exactly happened. He had just won an award for best television show. Fuck! It pissed my off so much! "Aargh!" I shouted as I banged my table.

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